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Inbox of Minato Arisato, #3630FF.

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[That's... those are stronger feelings than Minato was even expecting.

Dextera... treasures this god? She's someone he wants to be close to?

(Is that really healthy?)]

Why do you treasure her? That sounds kind of bad--I don't mean it in a bad way. I'm just trying to understand.

[passio]

[ boy, you don’t know the half of it!

dextera knows he’s messed up and selfish and wrong about a lot of things, but oddly he never feels more comfortable than when he thinks about being with god. he wants to come back to her. ]

The same reason anyone would feel that way about another person.

Is it wrong?

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[?

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2/2

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[what.]

I really can't say what's wrong or right here. It's your own world, like you said, and things are really different.

But do you mean to say you're in love with her?

[Romantic or platonic or something else entirely... any of those, and he's still Concerned.]

[passio]

[ in love…?

dextera doesn’t know. he loves his brother. he loves guren. they’re two different types of love, but he thinks they’re both “love” all the same.

what he feels for god, though… ]

I don’t know if there’s a way to answer that. It’s not that I don’t want to. If I knew, I would tell you, even if I thought the answer was “wrong.”

I know she’s important to me. She said we used to be one. What comes from that is something even I can’t understand.

I’m sorry.

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[...Well. He supposes that that's something--it makes a little more sense to him that Dextera doesn't really know the answer than if Dex was certain about loving this god of his...

... Hm.]

You don't have anything to apologize for. Thank you for explaining it to me. I do think I understand a bit better. [As much as this sort of thing can be understood.]

I guess sometimes we just have relationships like that. Not everything is clear cut.

[In a lot of ways, that's how he feels about Ryoji too--a very similar situation all around, isn't it...? But still complicated in its own way.]

[passio]

[ dextera takes a moment after that to scroll up and actually look at what he wrote—in the moments after minato’s message, he feels like he’s coming out of some passionate haze.

sometimes he just gets like that, when thinking about his life from home. ]

Haha.

I must have sounded crazy just now, but you’re still being nice to me.

Somehow, it feels like I know you a little better, even though I’m the one who said so much.

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[...]

Is that really that strange? We all come from different circumstances, and I couldn't hope to understand all of them.

I didn't think you sounded crazy. Just that you sounded really passionate about something I didn't entirely understand.

But I'd like to. I want to understand everyone as much as I can. I don't really think I'm in any sort of position to judge anyone for...well, anything, really.

[passio]

[ different circumstances, yes, but it’s starting to sound like they have more in common than it would seem. dextera always suspected minato had been through a lot, but minato is oddly reticent with the specifics.

he’s not trying to punish himself for anything, maybe. ]

I don’t really understand my feelings either, to be honest with you.

I know what I feel in this town. These memories are mine, and these feelings have grown from nothing. It’s harder when I think about home.

[messianic]

I guess that makes sense. You probably still need more time to figure it all out.

It's okay. There's no rush on it right now. Anyway, I feel like I understand you a little better now too. In a good way.

[passio]

“In a good way.” [ although it may not seem like it, dextera is smiling when he types that. ] I’m more curious about you than ever before, truthfully.

[1/3]

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[... He didn't mean that to sound like it did either, oops.]

Oops... I didn't mean for that.

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[That doesn't sound quite right, actually... TRYING AGAIN.]

I mean, I didn't think there was that much to be curious about.

[3/3]

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[...THAT SOUNDS EVEN WORSE?

Wow he's so bad at this!!]

... Never mind. Those messages sounded bad, that's not what I meant either.

[passio]

[ oh… minato. ]

I think this is where I would type “lol.”

All I meant is that I rarely get to hear your opinions like I did with this. Maybe we don’t agree, but I’ve learned something about you, anyway.

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[He's...doing his best.

Maybe.]

I see... I guess it is a topic I do feel pretty strongly about, even if I feel the same way. [They may not agree, but that's not necessarily a bad thing.]

Thanks for listening to my thoughts too, either way.

[passio]

My feelings haven’t changed, at least.

Let’s talk again soon.

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Of course. I'll talk to you later, Dextera-san.